the male menstrual cycle

i had to make note of this somewhere. i'm trying to find the reasons behind a lot of things and taking the approach that no, it's not me. i'm recording that the week of sunday/monday (september 27ish) is a week waiting to end. there were similar actions/reactions the week of august 9th, but let's discount that. this week is the beginning to the beginning. using this to record the haps and mishaps of it all. we'll see where this goes. probably no where, because this is the internet and it's not going to get lost or thrown away. probably no where, because this is my life and my life is a continuum and not a process of linear events. sporadic and nonsense. i feel low and i need a hug. my source of high and hugs is the cause of this all, so i need to search elsewhere for the time being.